If you are going through big shifts at accelerated pace right now, know that the transformation has started. The awakening, the shifts in consciousness are underway, the initiation has taken place, knowingly or unknowingly of your part. Now there is no way back. And while it all seems confusing at times, giving rise to a lot of questions of the mind, like why is this happening, why can I not continue like this, why is this falling away, rest assured that the energy always guides you into the direction of your highest growth and expansion of consciousness to come back to LOVE, the space where no words and explanations are needed and you can simply rest in the presence of your own being.
Pray every day to be guided in the right direction and you will.